oh yes, i have failed to mention that i cannot share my elder brothers’ story. it would in fact, be catastrophic. ha not really. truly i was sworn to secrecy…here is a picture to make up for the damage
alright, sometimes i get stuck in the process of trying to post something on this site. words seem so to escape my brain. honestly, it gets me a bit frustrated. so, today i was writing (typing i should say) and i was at loss for words. suddenly, my brother, across the ocean, decides to get online. as we were chatting, i spilled to him my lousy dilemma. he says “send to me what you have written and i’ll finish it.” ha, the thought was greatly amusing to me, so i copied and pasted my few measly sentences and sent them on. ten minutes later the results of his finished story was in my gmail inbox. hurriedly, i opened it, thinking of the well shaped, abnormal story that was soon to be read by my very eyes. i knew that the outcome would be immensely far fetched, but still, i was entirely excited to read his next creation. the original sentences that i had first written where a bit tweaked. then the imagination of my warped, older brother came rushing onto the page, full throttle. never before have a laughed so hard at such a ridiculous, twisted story. maybe the months apart from this, ( a normal day to day occurrence) made it all the more humorous. his excellently written tale was a well needed gift to me. i have missed his humor. this event, of course, took me back to the olden times when my family and i would make up crazy stories. years passing those stories would turn into legends. from jeffery and whatshisname, to rudy powder and r. batrick, and we can’t forget that little man in the closet. i think my smallest brother has even come to think of these fictional stories as real, true life. the absurdity of it all. my father being the crowned king in every bit of these comedies and fables. he has taught his children well…indeed we will never forget, nor stop retelling these laughter eeking tales of pure enjoyment! i love you, my family!
there are times when this journey inside of life becomes unsure. the light of assurance flickers dimly, daring to burn out. i question what i once was so sure of. things seem to be thrown out of focus, the road is hardly recognizable. the worldly business and buzz consume the ultimate goal, blurring it out of sight. uncanny is the speed of negative that the darkness of the world carries . doubt slowly curls its sly, cold fingers around my thoughts, threatening to invade all that is true. knees weaken under the hefty bulk of uncertainty that i have let control me. i become confused, scared, unable to move. where is the truth that i once held so dearly, where is the peace? we had once walked hand in hand, fully trusting, no foolish doubts to blockade the future ahead. and i know that same truth and peace is still there, still waiting. but somehow i drifted away. perhaps i was preoccupied with doing things in my own power, or by taking on useless worries. i let it creep in, the rush of the world taking me in a whirlwind. i loose focus. i forget who controls the universe, the one who knits together even the tiny molecules. colossians 1:17 “And He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.” suddenly i am snapped out of my ridiculous worry imposed stupor. the path that had diminished is once again illuminated as i remember Who’s kid i am. the Kings kid, God, my perfect Father. He becomes my sanity. He is in total control! He screws my head on straight, takes my once clenched hand, and leads me back into His place of truth. He replaces my singed eyesight with His vision……He has us. He’s got His kids’ back. what should we fear, why should we worry? He is for us, waiting to be our sanity. sweet Jesus Christ, my sanity. my clarity….
acts 17:28
”In him we live and move and have our being……..”
these are some of the children that we ministered to, north of nairobi…
13So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love…1 corinthians 13
i have decided to write occasionally on things that are of less importance than the bearing of the human soul. a difficult thing to do, it will not come as often, but i shall try….so the topic today is a combination of random facts and uplifting insights into my day to day thinking. probably a short count on words. today it was thundering in nairobi, kenya. i really loved it. i heard the dogs barking crazily so i went outside to investigate the loco commotion and found a monkey hanging out of a tree. he had a short, stubby tail, maybe even a bit overweight. the dogs never captured the famed villain. i have never liked opossums, yet i have ironically just received one from my best friend. luckily it was manufactured and stuffed. i wish i knew dr suess. my little brother has started reading box car children. its a rather long series of kids books. it feels weird to be unemployed in america. my father says that i am a slack on society (ha). last night a kenyan friend of mine went to the hospital to have her baby. she arrived there at 2pm and deliver around 6pm. the odd fact: she delivered it herself. no one was in the room with her. it was also her firstborn. this is africa. we took her home today. and i must say, that baby is adorable! jeopardy does not play on african tv. a sad thing to confess. goats are the ideal lawnmower. americans should adapt to this path of thinking as well. what worth is it to gain the whole world, and in the midst of that gain we also loose our love? why cling to material possessions? i was reading today and the Lord really pushed a certain scripture into my life…could we ask for more than to Love the Father with everything that is within us? you can take the world, Father, but give us You! it is so worth laying it down for Him…
from phillipians 3
7But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9and be found in him…